So, I'm known at my college for singing, pretty much anywhere I go. It's just what I do. I do it to relax, I do it for fun, (I do it to show off, naughty me), and I do it because of the awesome acoustics the buildings have. It's just something that I've done for years. The staff actually seem to enjoy it and it's fun.
The trouble comes in when people don't believe me when I say I am partially Deaf. They think I'm kidding. They don't understand that I will probably be able to hear myself longer than I will be able to hear them, and as I long as I can hear my own voice echoing through my bones into my ears, I will probably be able to still sing pretty well.
Now, the actual singing is pretty easy. The trouble comes in when someone introduces me to another person, or someone approaches me, and I can't hear them. It can get a little awkward.
Here's a perfect example:
Lady: "This is Kiwi. She has an amazing voice!" {Not my words, her words.]
Gent: "Oh, wow! Cool! Wejfdj.....[I can't understand him]."
Me: "Um, could you speak up? I'm half deaf."
Gent: "hahaha...Right!"
Me: "No...I'm literally..half deaf."
Gent: "Oh...." [He looks away and awkwardly ends the conversation.}
This actually isn't too uncommon. I say I'm half deaf or I can't hear them, and they think I'm joking. For me, this generally isn't too awkward unless I can't get them to speak up. However, for hearing people, this just seems to be a major conversation stopper. It's kind of like:
"Hey, I'm Deaf! I can't hear you! Please speak up!"
"Oh...hey...Deaf. ok. Um, oh, look at the time! I gotta go."
Why does being Deaf have to end a conversation? I can still hear a lot of things, I just need you to speak up. Don't walk away. This isn't awkward unless you make it be. I guess it just gets to me. It feels like, a minute ago I was just another gal who could apparently sing, and now it's as if I'm not even worth the effort to simply raise your voice and repeat yourself. I feel snubbed.
The trouble comes in when people don't believe me when I say I am partially Deaf. They think I'm kidding. They don't understand that I will probably be able to hear myself longer than I will be able to hear them, and as I long as I can hear my own voice echoing through my bones into my ears, I will probably be able to still sing pretty well.
Now, the actual singing is pretty easy. The trouble comes in when someone introduces me to another person, or someone approaches me, and I can't hear them. It can get a little awkward.
Here's a perfect example:
Lady: "This is Kiwi. She has an amazing voice!" {Not my words, her words.]
Gent: "Oh, wow! Cool! Wejfdj.....[I can't understand him]."
Me: "Um, could you speak up? I'm half deaf."
Gent: "hahaha...Right!"
Me: "No...I'm literally..half deaf."
Gent: "Oh...." [He looks away and awkwardly ends the conversation.}
This actually isn't too uncommon. I say I'm half deaf or I can't hear them, and they think I'm joking. For me, this generally isn't too awkward unless I can't get them to speak up. However, for hearing people, this just seems to be a major conversation stopper. It's kind of like:
"Hey, I'm Deaf! I can't hear you! Please speak up!"
"Oh...hey...Deaf. ok. Um, oh, look at the time! I gotta go."
Why does being Deaf have to end a conversation? I can still hear a lot of things, I just need you to speak up. Don't walk away. This isn't awkward unless you make it be. I guess it just gets to me. It feels like, a minute ago I was just another gal who could apparently sing, and now it's as if I'm not even worth the effort to simply raise your voice and repeat yourself. I feel snubbed.
